I can’t wait to get the fuck out of here.
I need a mountain to go live on in for a while.
I’ll bring tea, books, flower seeds to make a garden, a canoe, a tent, and three lighters.
And once those lighters have been used up, I’ll know that I’ve found myself again,
and can be calm and myself until the next time I’m fucked up.
Told my mother that I need to go back on meds because I’m blacking out and I’m fearing I’ll get worse until I get out of this house; then I’ll be able to manage myself without medication because there will be a lack of unnecessary stress.
I’m going to be putting some books and some of my clothes/shoes up for sale soon, so I’ll be posting the link to where it’ll be on storenvy as well. It’d be awesome if you guys bought some of it or passed the word along. Eventually I’m gonna start selling some tie-dye stuff, but that will take a bit of time.
I’m making bread, baking birthday cookies for a friend, and goal-reaching cookies for Raven, and then I’m making granola so I can eat it while I watch perks of being a wallflower because that movie makes me cry, a lot.
Someone please come hangout with me, even though I’m home with family, they just put me down and make me feel out of place. so it makes me feel lonely.
Doctor: you need to be self-aware so you can manage your moods better.
Me: *is self-aware and tries to explain that they know that I’m overreacting and is trying to calm down but hyperventilates*
Doctor: you need to stop using your illness as an excuse to overreact about things.
The base is just two tablespoons of cornmeal, or cornstarch(powder). Since I have dark hair I added two tablespoons of all natural coco powder. So if you’re blonde, just leave it white.
I apply it to my roots with an old makeup brush, so it’s not so messy. and then brush it through with a wide toothed comb, or my fingers.
I LOVE IT.
also, I take my drivers test tomorrow and I am crying.